Its time to get over a lot of things, and this is likely to happen gradually. The past is only a burden to the extent that we make it so, and this is a time for you of lightening your load by realizing ever more deeply that the past is to be accepted and the future is, for you a place to focus your creativity. Let go of having to always find reasons for everything and just let yourself be yourself. You are what you are, and when you really see this you will see it is beautiful.