You have the chance now to delve into some deep and/or dark stuff. The question is, do you want to? The answer is probably yes, because this is not going to go away and is stuff you really need to look into for your own personal growth. But you need to do it carefully and slowly, and you need to make sure you take a bright light with you when you descend into the cave. The bright light is your positive attitude. The journey can be difficult, but most certainly enriching.